Somewhere it stopped being fun

Y’know, I took the job of TriLUG chair, because I could help out, help other have fun, and because, well it’s fun to do this.

Somewhere in the last week or three, it stopped being fun. And in the last hour or so, I’ve just about quit, because I just can’t take the constant disagreements and bickering. I mean, I want to do something good here, right? I want to set things up so that EVERYONE can get something out of it.

But maybe I’m overly cautious. Maybe I’m just enough of a control freak that if I can’t do it my way, or at least find a happy compromise, I don’t want to do it. Maybe I’m too paranoid.

But fuck it, I give up. I’m probably going to open access to everyone who wants an account on the TriLUG server in a matter of days, not because I want to do it that fast, but because I’m caving, and everyone seems to think it’s worth doing now, right or wrong.

Who cares if it’s insecure! Who cares if we’ll probably be owned by some script kiddie in Kazakstan in a few weeks. As long as they get their damn shell accounts, it’s worth the risk!

I almost quit. Almost. but then I have to ask who would get the job, and I don’t.

Fuck.