I’ve been in a semi-foul mood for about the entire week. Ray has been acting out, Jacob has been fussy, and Renee has been bitchy.
Me? i’ve got the usualy complaints. House is a wreak, I’m (for the most part) cleaning up after everyone else when I get home nights, I’m not sleeping well, and work is a little more tense than it needs to.
I would vent al my frustations here, but y’all don’t give a rat’s ass. Let’s suffice to say that all the domestic compliaints I had pre-job change are still present, and now the bliss of getting a regular paycheck isn’t distracting me any more.
In the end the only people who can fix this are us. But it’s getting the feelings/issues out without the usualy arguments and excuses that’s grinding me up. And the expectation that, like last time, even if things do change, it’ll be for no more than a month, at best, before all the old habits and complaints re-assert themselves.
Those who do not learn from the past are doomed to repeat it. I’m trying to learn, dammit, but don’t see any ways to break the cycle right now. Which means that, most likely, there will be a disagreement/fight this weekend.
Sadly, I’m the one itching for it.