Kids are hyper.
Renee is enjoying Mother’s day by ignoring the rest of us and playing her game.
Oh, wait, she does that every weekend.
We’re literally almost out of the staples. No milk, bread, barely any eggs, no crackers, or fruit. Renee said she’d go to the store YESTERDAY when it got too hot to be outside. We see how that went.
Just like the laundry she said she’d help put away. it’s still in the basket in our room.
It’s mother’s day. I’m not gonna yell. I’m not. Really. I’ll save that for tomorrow.
Even if it’s counter productive. I’m tired of this “weekend == ignore kevin and the kids and the house unless I have something I want to do” bullshit. I’m *REALLY* tired of the “ignore Kevin unless we’re interacting with the family or I’m/he’s horny” thing.
I’m tired fo Ragnarok Online 8-14+hours a day. Logged on at 8, I expect she won’t log off until it’s time to go to her mom’s house this afternoon. Then back on when we come home until 12:30/1am.
Did I mention about a week ago she needed some “give-away” accounts for RO and so registered under my email? And she’s all like that was no big thing?
And it’s not like I’ll get any long-term benifit over the “discussion” we’re going to have. Maybe a week of improved behavior, then a slow but steady drift back to where we are today. Empty snack food packages and leftovers all over her computer desk, the kids dishes all over the play room…Avon boxes allove rthe house, mostly where she opened them.
That’s been the case for the last six months. 8 to past midnight with the game. And when she *CAN’T* play the game or access her computer, she’s tired and in bed asleep by 10. Still mostly ignores me. Unless I press certain issues.
I wonder what would happen if I just turned off all RO capabilities on the house network? Same old, same old?
I can’t wait for our week at the beach next month. When she’s away from the game/cmputer for more than 12 hours she starts to get grumpy and mean. It’s not like she finds other things to do.
It’s not like there *ARE* other things to do. The quarterly bathroom cleaning has yet to happen (ugh. Soap scumm and water stains *shudder*) I guess I need to invite someone over for *THAT* to get done. And hey, what about un-junking the master betroom? or sorting thourhg jacob’s clothes and finding thingfs that don’t fit anymore. And putting those things in the attic?
(Side note: I’ll probably clean the garage, so i can put the truck in it someday. And by clean I mean “throw tons of shit out”.)
but, of course, “Jacob won’t let her”. Jacob hasn’t let her for the last year. Why should it change now? I mean, if you look back at the *SHIT* she put me through for not being here for the family last year, you’d kind of expect something from her, too. Right? Fuck no. I have to do all this working and sacrificing for her and the kids – giving up TriLUG, cutting the Hockey back to one, *MAYBE* two games a month if I’m lucky (hell, I think I went to all of 7 out of the 20 games I had on my half of the season tix this past year. because last year I went to “too many” in the Spring).
My whole life, whole attitude ahs been re-worked to accomodate what she thinks I shoudl do. My priroities are now Family, Work, Self because it was that or loose her and the boys.
I love her. I love her so much it *KILLS* me. I couldn’t leave her unless there was some circumstance that forced me to do it. But I am on the verge of a major meltdown. And about to turn off the DSL, send darkcanvas.com and related domains that I host to a cheap-ass hosting company, shoot the TV, and *FORCE* her to pay attention to this world instead of taking the easy way out.
But I have a very bad feeling about how that will go.
Anyone know how to set up an intervention? Because I think that’s about the only way I’m going to get the message across.
more importantly, where does one get help for “online addiction”? Unless it’s depression. At which point we’ll need more than just an intervention.