Thoughts & Ponderings

– You know, my weekends go so much better since Renee is already at work when I wake up. This makes me wonder how next week is going to go.
– The late afternoon hours when i hit the slump (3:30-5-ish) at work are the worst. I may have already said this.
– I think the whole situation makes me crazy (as in BAD crazy, not haha crazy). I wonder if I’ve been making myself crazy for a few years now. I can’t even think of her without the full range of anger, jealousy, depression, love, and sadness. Love and anger being the principle two right now. And this has been going on for a few years, now that I really LOOK at things.
– It used to be Love and sadness and loneliness. I always wondered how I could be so lonely living with the woman I loved…I guess I know now.
– I haven’t listened to the radio (or ipod, or music) in my car for about a week. I just drive with the stereo off.
– This would be so much easier if I didn’t still love her.

About Kevin Sonney

Kevin Sonney - who, contrary to popular opinion was NOT raised by wolves - grew up in central North Carolina. He fell into the technology field by accident in 1991, when he gave up the wild and crazy lifestyle of an on-air AM radio DJ to become a mundane technical support monkey. The technology industry has never really recovered from this. Kevin has worked for such names as IBM, Red Hat, webslingerZ, and Lulu Technologies (we won't mention the ones that didn't survive the experience). He currently works as a Linux Administrator for Apptio. In his spare time he rescues stray animals and plays video games with his two sons. His wife, we're sad to say, helps him get past the really hard bits. Kevin is still not very mundane, he just got better at hiding it.
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4 Responses to Thoughts & Ponderings

  1. dr_scholl says:


  2. ryeth says:

    I’m so sorry you are going through all of this.

    Maybe you should listen to music or get some books on tape. Those quiet times in the car can be awfully tough I imagine.


  3. alchemist says:

    Actually, that’s the funny thing – I *LIKE* the quiet time in the car. I’m actually irritated by the radio and such lately.

    I was listening to floyd at work, just to drown out the chitchat (all WoW, all the time) and that was actually relaxing.

    After the R&R Hall of Fame on VH1 Classic, I now feel the need for some REM, but I think it’s all on tape…

  4. gukacayuga says:

    *hugs* been there. It gets better after a while.

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