Parentl Failure

The hardest thing to admit is when we fail as parents.

Today I had a moment where I had to discipline my oldest – and yes, it involved a spanking. To me, this means I haven’t done my job – if I am in a position where that is the ONLY recourse left then I have failed in that moment as a father.

After he had some time to think about it, we had a talk I explained how it wasn’t that he failed, but that I had failed him. And I did most important thing – I forgave him and gave him a hug and told him I loved him.

Remember when you would hear “this hurts me more than it hurts you” and how trite that sounded when your ass was stinging and tears were running down your face?

I understand now, with tears on my face and shame and hurt in my heart.

About Kevin Sonney

Kevin Sonney - who, contrary to popular opinion was NOT raised by wolves - grew up in central North Carolina. He fell into the technology field by accident in 1991, when he gave up the wild and crazy lifestyle of an on-air AM radio DJ to become a mundane technical support monkey. The technology industry has never really recovered from this. Kevin has worked for such names as IBM, Red Hat, webslingerZ, and Lulu Technologies (we won't mention the ones that didn't survive the experience). He currently works as a Linux Administrator for Apptio. In his spare time he rescues stray animals and plays video games with his two sons. His wife, we're sad to say, helps him get past the really hard bits. Kevin is still not very mundane, he just got better at hiding it.
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